of course i would apologize to you for not being able to care enough, the way i apologize to the world every day because i wake up and it’s still fucked because i haven’t yet been able to fix it, and the way i apologize for buying new clothes and eating more meat and sugar and for drinking more coconut juice than is reasonable for a me-sized and -located person and for not being able to keep my friends from doing themselves in and for not being able to stop people from eating each other up, individually and systematically and emotionally and nationally and monetarily and physically and globally, and for the way that sometimes i just cannot smile at a stranger.
